Kau ni peliklah~

Tajuk hari ni, pelik dengan perangai manusia yg sering berubah2..
Ye, tak dinafikan bahawa setiap manusia ni perangai dia x sama dengan yg lain.
Kalau baik, baiklah kite.. Kalau jahat, jahat la kita.. Tu la cara kite hidup kite.
Tp xbermakna manusia yg jahat tu takkan pernah jadi baik suatu hari nanti. & yg baik tu takkan pernah jadi jahat..

Ustazah masa sekolah agama dulu ade cerita, kalau kite berniat utk melakukan kebaikan pun kita dah diberi pahala dan begitu lah sebaliknya.. Jadi, kita kenalah sentiasa memperingatkan diri kita, keluarga, sahabat handai utk melakukan kebaikan. Tak ruginye kalau kita buat kebaikan.. Walaupun kita dipandang pelik atau dipandang 2juta mata manusia sekali pun, apa yg patut kita fikirkan adalah diri kita sendiri.. Abaikan sahaja.. Dalam bahasa kasarnya, persetankan segalanya.. :)

Okay, tak nak membebel byk2 mukadimah tu.. kita start dengan tajuk entry hari ni..


Sepanjang saya belajar di salah sebuah IPTA yg dikenali ramai, bermacam2 ragam, perangai, yang dilakukan oleh orang2 di sekeliling saya. Bermacam-macam smpai sy sendiri pun xtahu nak ckp mcamana.. Kdg2 apa yg dilakukan oleh mereka ini sy layankan aje, dan ade juga yg sy abaikan aje sbb sy mmg seorg yg jenis mls nk ambil tahu psl org lain selagi dia xmengacau hidup sy..

Kawan, mcm2 kawan yg kita ada.. Yg baik, yg xbaik, yg nakal, yg sopan, yg suka berpura2, yg suka bergurau senda xtentu pasal, yg beriye, yg suka ponteng kelas, yg suka jd 'passenger' dlm group assignment, yg mcm2 lagi lah.. Mmg org2 yg mcm ni, kita xkan terlepas utk menghadapinya.

Kenapa kita menghadapinya? Sbb kita telah ditetapkan Allah SWT utk kita menghadapinya.. Samada kita kuat atau pun x, samada kita redha ataupun x, samada kita akan maki mereka yg negatif ni, atau kita akan bersyukur dengan kawan yg baik dgn kita? Semuanya terletak di tangan kita.. Ni semua adalah ujian daripada Allah SWT utk kita.. Setiap apa yg dilakukan, ditetapkan oleh Allah SWT tu ada hikmah dan alasannya dan akan ada ganjarannya kalau kita menghadapi org2 / kwn2 yg macam ni...

Apa2 pun, tepuk dada tanya iman. Jgn la kita menghukum seseorg tu jahat je.. Kita je yg betul.. Sesungguhnya kita ni semua manusia biasa yg tak pernah terlepas dripada melakukan kesilapan.. TP kita boleh minimize kan kesilapan kita dengan sentiasa berhati-hati dengan apa yg akan kita lakukan..
Berdoalah sentiasa kepada Allah supaya kita kuat, sabar & tabah utk menghadapi segala ujianNya..

*MINTALAH DARIPADA-NYA.. SESUNGGUHNYA ALLAH DENGAR APA YG KITA HENDAKKAN.. :)

It's a damn cold night..

Di kesempatan masa yg sgt2 mencemburui diri ini, aku sempat hendak meng'update' blog.
Aih.. Yes, I should get ready to memorize everything yg aku da belajar. But I just can't continue it anymore.
Semakin beriye hendak study, semakin merapu otak aku jd nya. (utk test esok pg pkul 830am..uhuh!)
when I'm thinking about this, I feel like I wanna cry.. Ahh..tidakkk! Serabut kepala bila difikirkan segala mcm benda yg nak dilakukan.. Ya Allah, pls give me strength to face all these..

Ye, tak dinafikan aku dah mula serabut dgn tasks yg aku kena siapkan. Lifeguard, assignments, presentation, tests and yg plg penting sekali adelah FINAL EXAM.. Haiyoo.. Ni jela chance that I have to sit my final exam. Next sem dah practical..

I am damn hoping that I can pass all the papers this sem so that I can finish my study mengikut apa yg dah disetkan oleh fakulti.. Ya Allah, minta dijauhkan drpd fail any subjects.. Aminn. InsyaAllah..

The conclusion is, pls Farhain Sallehuddin.. Help urself.. No one will help you except urself.. :)
START STUDYYY!! Yeahhh!

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?

Actually the title is Jar of Hearts..
The singer is Christina Perri (Mungkin sedara mara Katy Perry)
Whatever it is, please enjoy her song. Search la di Youtube utk mndengar nya..
Radio pon da udarakan lagu ni.. besh2~ :)


I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most


And I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?


I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all


And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

I DO NOT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS WITH YOU~

Maybe you do not understand my feelings.

I've told you clearly what I like and don`t like.

You just ignore it and thought that I was joking when I told you.

Just please behave yourself. Because sooner or later I might fed-up with you.

And when the time comes, don't ask me why..

Thank you~

I AM FIGHTING WITH MYSELF

Erghhh... What am I going to do?
I really don`t want to do something that will ruin my life again.. (not so ruin my life actually.. but still, I really don`t want that anymore..)
Ya Allah, pls give me strength to face all these.
People out there, pls give me support..
I`m trying to motivate myself.
Just pls, don`t force me something that I really want to avoid it..

I am Sorry~

It is hard to say sorry kan?
People always and always make mistakes..
Secara kite sedar ataupun x.. Yes, I admit yg aku juga selalu membuat kesilapan.
Hidup di Uni mmg byk cabaran, dugaan, ujian, etc..
We live here dikelilingi kawan2..(Yg ade family dekat tu okay la)
Ni yg merantau jauh drpd family.. Kite yg dikelilingi kawan2 ni, selalu akan ade bertikam lidah, persilisihan faham, kecil hati, mengejek, etc.. (ni xde la ditujukan kepada sesiapa.. Note to myself actually)
Okay, secara sedar ataupun x, sy mmg selalu la mencari psl dengan kawan2 ni.. Yes I admit it.. Cus I know I was wrong.. but then it`s sometimes hard for me to say sorry kat mereka ini.. Kenapa ek? Mungkin kerana ego, dan mungkin juga kerana geram yg xleh handle.. But then, it will settle later.. kan? secara semula jadinya la without saying sorry... (mungkin ye, mungkin juga x) ntah la, terpulang kepada individu masing2..
For me, bila meningkat dewasa ni, kematangan tu perlu.. xperlu la nk bergaduh gila2 kerana kesalahan yg sengal je.. or mungkin xtahan dengan ejekan..
Mula2 dengar mmg hati masing2 akan panas.. Biasalah bila ion + berjumpa dengan ion +, mmg akan gaduh la.. Tp kite boleh fikir secara matang.. I dont like to simpan dalam hati sebenarnya...
Nak ejek, ejek la.. pastu lama2 layankan jela.. xde effect apa2 pun kat kite sebenanye..
(This is for my opinion jela..) I dont mind pun org nak cakap apa.. kite kenal diri kite sendiri.. mungkin certain friends / friend yg kenal kite ni mcmana.. but still, diorg xkan kenal kite sebenar2nya.. kan?
Apa-apa lah.. but still aku maafkan la kesalahan mereka ini semua.. N I am sorry kerana terkasar bahasa, terguris hati sesiapa.. kerana manusia ni xsempurna..
Kerana mulut badan binasa.. So, till right here..
I AM SORRY TO ALL MY FRIENDS..
thanks for being here with me, giving me support, etc..

We share our joy & happiness together..

We had such a short time together..
We spent our precious time only for two days..
(hari2 yg training, aku xhingat.. ngee~ sorry, guys)
I`m gonna miss you all.. :)

Location : Stadium Hoki Pantai Dalam
Date : 5th & 6th March 2011

Next time, if ade game apa2 lagi, kita try main lg ea?
Thanks a lot to Manager (Ain Anati), Forward (Balqish), Keeper (Nina), Right & Left (Tasya & Faeezah), Defends (Aida & Suraya), Reserved Defend & Reserved Right (Embok & Ieda).. ^__^

Thanks a lot kpd player lelaki.. Izwan, Najmi, Farez, Mata, Keeper, Zulkarnain., Syed, etc.. (Sorry, aku xingat nama u all..)

Agak2 kalau terserempak, bertegur sapa la ye?

Us.. but without Faeezah.. Mana tah dia menghilang kejap.

Guys.. Before semi-final..

Xlupa jugak kat my BFF (Noraini Hassan).. Oh, miss her so much.. kitorg jumpa on 4th March 2011..(secara kebetulan kitorg berjumpa) On the next day, she came. but at that time, I was preparing myself for the first game. So, we didn`t have the chance to capture gambar again~ uhuhu!

Ni pun berjumpa secara kebetulan.. On 5th March, I was on the phone with Ain, berjalan2 mncari Ain, pap! Terjumpa Kak ieda kat Main Entrance.. Haiyoo~ Miss her so much too.. Sorry kat Fifi, sbb xdpt bjmpa kau.. Coincidence semua ni.. uhuhu~

*Kitorg selalu la plan nk berjumpa di BP, atlast kitorg berjumpa kat Stadium. uhuhu~ (ni ditujukan kat Ain n Kak Ieda)

Oh,Manager.. :)

The 3 of us..

The three of them..

Penggabungan NR1, Delima & Teratai..

This is me all alone.. kih3 :)

p/s : Congratulations kat Guys cus dapat Johan.. Kitorg ni kalah kat Suku Akhir jep.. Uhuhu~ Sedih2.. But we enjoyed ourselves together.. Penat jerit2 kat tepi padang. kih3 .. :)
Thanks a lot u`ols... ^____^

Insan Bernama Kekasih

Tgk tajuk seriously menakutkan aku sebenarnya..

1. Adakah aku sudah sampai waktunya utk mencari insan yg bernama kekasih?
2. Adakah aku cukup bersedia utk berada di alam itu lagi sekali?
3. Mungkin aku sebenarnya x ada langsung niat hendak ke arah itu?
4. Adakah hari esok aku dapat seorang yg betul2 jujur utk menjadikan aku kekasihnya?
5. Mungkin aku akan kecewa, derita, bahagia?

The answer for all that questions is, I don`t really want to get involve in that kind of thing.. Just that, I am not ready yet.. bukan xnak mencari, tp malas & I want to enjoy2 dulu hidup single ni.. kih3..

*For those yg dah ade insan yg bernama kekasih, jagalah kekasih anda sebaiknya. I hope that you are happy.. InsyaAllah kalau jodoh panjang, sampailah ke jinjang pelamin.. :) Jagalah adab pergaulan ye? Itu jgn dilupakan.. :)

Just A Dream

Erm.. it has been so long I do not updated here.. Ermm... just, I was damn busy of works.. Assignments.. Hidup kat Uni mmg byk benda yg nak kena buat.. Assignments tu adalah homework kita.. Tekanan pun ada gak.. tekanan bukannya apa, sbb buatnya last minute. Hahaha!
Okla., em.. actually aku dah lama gila x membuat kerja yg mengeluarkan peluh yg byk.. (bersukan) Cita-cita yg the latest ni adalah nk wakil UiTM utk MASUM.. hoho~  Main hoki la.. lama dah xmain.. penat la pulak bila asek turun training je. tp lama2 best la sebenarnya... Teringat zaman Star dulu. hahaha! apadaaa... abaikan aje..

Erm.. yg paling best sekarang ni, aku tersgt2lah gembira tatkala masuk UiTM ni.. (apahal plak tiba2 ni?) Haaa.. camni, aku sebenarnya dah berazam gile2 utk menjadi seorg yg baik tatkala masuk UiTM.. mmg sungguh2 la nk berubah gila2.. I really want to control my anger.. Seriously... Xnak gaduh2 dgn org.. But then, something happened when people buat aku marah.. Ya Allah, rasa macam aku ni da macam apa tah..

Sebelum ni, time skolah mmg aku adalah buat benda yg xbetu kat org lain.. I even hit people before.. Erghh~ Tp td aku TERbuat lagi sekali.. Geram + Marah gila aku jadinya.. Mmg ikutkan hati aku nk blasah cukup2.. tp terperasan org tgk terdiam, n terpaku dgn perbuatan aku, I have to stop that act.. sesungguhnya aku rasa macam aku dah langgar janji dgn diri sendiri..

*Rasa bersalah terhadap diri sendiri...