dont know what to put here..

As salam.
First of all, erm.. da lama aku xupdate blog. Aku bukannya apa, aku xde la idea sgt nk berkarya kat sini. mmg seriu xpandai. Tp kalau merepek2 bila berkata2 face to face tu, mmg terer la.. hahaha~ Oklah. byk bnde yg berlaku for these 2weeks.. Firstly, kite citer last week punye program.
Erm.. on 1th december we went (one whole fml but without Fatih sbb dia g camping) kitorg went to Homestay Parit Penghulu kat Sungai Rambai, Melaka.. At first when mumy n dady said kitorg semua skali kena g, kitorg mcm xnk laaaa.. yela bnde alah ni program utk kawan2 mumy n dady. Reunion diorg kot.. malu la kitog nk join skali. (Pdahal da ade plan kaw2 nk g jalan2 kat melaka...) xpela.. mule2 smpai tu mmg agak xbest sbb yela,,dady admin.. bosan2, aku pun ckp la konon2 nye nk berjalan2.. (padahal bosan tahap maksimum) tiba2 dady suh g potostat kertas.. aku pun g la pekan sungai rambai. gile la... kalau boleh semua kedai xde service photostat.. aku un xpaham. nk xnk, aku kena g pekan merlimau.. smpai je merlimau, i called baby.. oh shit,, i miss him.. eventhough dia mcm cacat sikit.. giler2.. tp he`s m good fren.. rahsia aku ade kat dia. hahaha~ xpela.. called dia, malangnye dia ade kat jb.. boncit btul la.. xdapat la jmpe dia. aku called qis, dia pu xangkat phone, s nk xnk aku kena patah balik homestay.. sesampai je hmestay, oh, shit! org da ramai... maluuuuu~~ gile vavi laaaa... so buat muka ala2 cute salam2 jela dgn kawan2 mumy n dady.. lek2 jeeee~ :) er.. program yg diadakan mmg seronok.. (Biasalahhh... bapak aku yg buat kn? Hahaha~ Eh, xdilupakan Uncle Ramli pun tolong dady skali) Ade BBQ, ade sukaneka.. (lari dlm guni, terompah gergasi, jalan guna tempurung kelapa n main baling selipar) , ade aerobik session, seriously,,, mmg seronokkkkk... bnde2 ni berlaku da msuk 19th dec 2010.. kite kena reverse kejap.. on 1th dec mlm tu, kitorg ade sesi suai kenal.. so, masing2 memperkenalkan family masing2... wahhh... sgt best bila dpt mengenali mereka semua.. selonok.. tp adek2 la.. xleh ngurat.. (gatal!) =P xpela... tp kan seriously mengambil masa yg lama... until 12lebih malam... gile vavi laaa... uhuhu~ xpela.. lpas session, semua balik.. tinggal kitorg 5beradik.. kitorg lepak2 karaoke.. haahahaha~ kelakar gile.. like always, aku akn merosakkan lagu.. apadaaaa~~ geram je mereka semua. apa leh buat? aku mmg suka buat mcm tu. sorry yeeeee? lek2 je.. on 19th petang tu, da tiba masanya utk balik. okeh mase ni, aku tgh bersiap2 utk melihat2 keadaan mazda.. check air okeh.. n then mase nk check minyak hitam. oh, shit! minyak hitam kerng kontang~ gilaaaaaaaa~ Aku da suspens tahap max.. mampus msti kena marah dgn dady. so mase nk kat balik tu, aku ckp slowly je dgn dady.. dady pun agak terkejut n bertanya, "kan dady da suruh tgk mnyak hitam semlm?" aku pon dgn poyo nye mnjawab "Angah terlupa" (padahaaaallll.. gileeee) kantoi.. xleh ckp. ahhah~ xpela.. alhamdulillah before balik tu g beli minyak hitam.. smpai bp dgn keadaan yg selamat eventhough aku terlelap2 mase drive.. main gileeeee! ape2 pun aku da kebuntuan ayat2 utk ditaip. Till right here.. Will continue writing... :)

Perjalanan yg memakan masa sejam setengah drpd Batu Pahat

As salam..
Currently aku berada di Pasir Gudang. This is because I have to help my sis actually to clean up her house.. Uhuhu~ Apa boleh buat? Nak xnk, kena tlg. Dan aku membawa 2org adek2 aku.. Farah A`liah & Farah Afiqah.. Wahh.. seronok betul budak 2org ni b\dpt berjln2.. Asek nk berjalan2 je kejenye..
Okeh.. mula2 smpai kat PG ari isnin aritu.. Mlm la baru smpai.. Da tu trus g mkn kat Dek Non. Haha! Tempat tu sgt gelap.. Tetiba boleh ade kedai makan.. Not bad.. Sedap & murah.. Makanan ikut pakej.. Wahh.. masing2 pon kelaparan.. Makan xingt, Hahaha! :))
Da tu, balik la umah.. Lepak2 tidur..
2nd day, kaklong ajak g zoo Johor.. wahhh bestnyeee.. Yg plg bestnye kan kaklong tipu aku weh. Dia kata masuk zoo sorg rm10.. Haaa.. Aku pun percaya jela ckp dia.. yela,, da brapa lama aku tinggalkan JB. Mne la nk ingt masuk Zoo tu brapa RM. Penipu btul.. Bila masuk tu kan,, Rupa2nya, Dewasa baru RM2. Kanak2 RM1.. Geramnyaaaaa~ UIhuhu~ Okeh la.. kat sana jln2 mcm nk patah kaki... Pastu naik bot kayuh.. Satu bot RM4.. Hahaha!~ Naik nni 3org.. Ery dgn Kaklong xnk naik.. So, aku n adek2 jela naik.. Hahaha~ Best naik ni.. kitorg terpusing2 macam gilak.. HAhaha~ Sebab xthu mana nk handle bende alah tu.. RUpenye, kat tgh tu, ade pedal dia... Mcm steering jugak laaa.. Hahha~ Mase kat tgh2 tu, naik balik semula kat jeti, A`liah paling xleh blah.. Menjerit2 macam nk jatuh je.. sbb air da byk masuk.. Seriously kelakar.. Aku yg kat tgh2 ni pun agak panic. Yela, sebb kitorg berdua xpakai Life Guard. Yg pakai Eque sorg je.. kitorg berdua xpakai life guard.. Aliah plg gelabah.. haha~ Nasib baik aku tahu swim.. ngee~ Tapi apa2 pun mmg lawak aaa.. Lepas main tu, g tgk tu, g tgk feeding program.. jln2.. smpai la lebam kaki. hahaha
So, I have to stop here because the line here isn`t good enough.. So, will write later.. uhuhu~

LAGHA..

As salam.
At this moment.. (1.23am) I realized that what have I done, makes me damn stupid. I was in a wrong pathway.. I trust something that is wrong, I did something that can makes me get into troubles. If I knew it earlier, I wouldn`t do that. I hope that there is still light for me to see an find the truths in this world. Sesungguhnya aku mmg seorg yg lemah, tp jika tnpa kekuatan dariNya, aku mmg akan jd lemah selemah2nya.. I have to be strong. Always... For myself, my family & my friends.. I will be someone that can help people out there one day. Without hoping balasan drpd mereka yg mndapat bantuan aku. InsyaAllah..
Ya Allah, jadikan lah aku seorg jutawan yg pemurah & temukan lah aku sahabat an jodoh yg baik hingga ke akhir hayat ku.. Aminn~~

Meluangkan masa

As salam..
Setelah berapa lama aku xjog.. Ptg td aku jog. With my adek2.. Uhuhu! Kat Tasik Y yg sgt terkanal kat Batu Pahat ni haaa.. Seronoknya.. There are so many people. But I don`t mind cus that is a place for public.
At first, I was jog with my youngest sister.. Disebabkan bdn dia yg makin debab.. So I have to train her actually to lose some weight.. It`s ok about that actually. But the funniest part is, we were jog for the 2nd round but then my sister said, "Angah, eque penat la. Eque haus la.. Nk minum." Cehhh! Tipu punye budak. Padahal bukannya aku suh dia sprint pun. Jog slowly.. Dia yg mcm excited nk lari laju sikit drpd aku.. Pastu penat2.. Xbesar pun tmpatnye. Ngada2.. So, I have to stop la.. Xpe.. Adek penat. Biakan jela.. N then aku ade prasan kat satu tempat tu, ade 2org instructors.. Siap ade speaker lg.. Aku rasa ade aerobic.. So, aku abaikn jela mula2.. Aku continue jog but without my adek. Dia g lepak dgn adek2 aku yg lain n kwn2 dia.. Mse jog tu, tiba2 terdengar lagu2.. Aku still biakan je.. Sbb mula2 tgk, org2 yg agak berumur je join bnde alah tu.. haha! Kejam... Tp bila tgk steps dorg, aku jd excited.. Aku join jela even aku xthu steps nye.. But slowly I did the steps.. Ngeee~ :)
Aerobic yg dorg buat agak isometric. But then it turned out to be yg agak dynamic.. Wahhhh! Bestnyeee.. Da tu aku buat jela.. Ade poco2 plak lg.. Ngeee~ :) De lpas tu, aku mcm agak boring sbb mkin lama mkin xbest.. So, aku jog lagi skali.. haha! Tiba2 aku terdengar lgu yg sgt aku rindukan.. Lgu J-Robik!!!!!!!!! Best wehhhh!! Org2 johor je yg thu bnde alah ni.. Serious.. aku trus lari laju g tmpat tu smula.. Aku join J-Robik! Perrrghhh.. mmg tringt zaman skolah dulu laa.. Kat Sek Men Teknik Tanjung Puteri, JB..(Yg skrg dikenali sbg SMVTP) Every movements, bagai terngiang2 kat tlinga suara2 mereka semua.. Cmne suara dak2 laki nganjing perempuan, bising2,.. Teringat org2 yg kat atas pentas.. Ckgu Aswan, KL, Prof (as a leader of J-Robik), seniors, juniors.. Ramai laaa... N when that happened, I always look at u.. When u looked at me back, I will smile back.. Until the time of breakfast.. Kih3... (U know who u are,dear).. :) Tp apa yg berlaku td, I can`t see semua nye, xdengar suara mereka semua, & aku xdpt nk melihat kau di situ lg.. I miss U damn much. Do u know that? Ermm.. It doesn`t matter anyway..
Ok, lepas berJ-robik semua, da petang.. Aku pun mnjalankan tnggungjawab aku semula sbg anak yg baik.. (baik ke?) uhuhu~ Mngambil mak aku n pulang ke rumah dgn hati yg gembira.. So, lpas ni plan nk g Tasik Y lg.. Pd rabu petang n Ahad pg.. Ade J-Robik.. Yes! Sukenyeeeee!!! So, sihat2kn la diri anda semua dgn melakukan aktiviti2 yg mengeluarkan peluh.. Ngeee~ :)

Haha~ It`s about 1++ am..

Suddenly, teringat kt salah satu band yg aku sgt minati mase sekolah dulu.. MCR!!! Uhuhu~ Ni sbb ade org influenced me to hear all the MCR`s songs.. (u know ure the one who taught me to listen all mcr`s songs) I just can`t forget bout u eventho u really don`t even care about me. But still I know u`re still depending on me. Haha~ (berangan)

So, all of mcr`s songs sgt best.. Dan aku mmg sgt sukaaaa!! Walaupun certain people cnt accept it because of the genre n muzik nye.. But for me, its quite okay utk mnghilangkan tension dgn mndengar lagu2 yg agak gila. Haha! But still I love Gerrard`s voice.. Unique.. (undiniable) xthu la ejaan tu btul ke x.. mls nk tgk kamus.. kih3..Haa.. because of someone yg da influenced aku dulu utk dgr lagu2 ni, so, I`ve bought all the 3albums.. Plus ade 1 album yg macam campur2.. So, mmg xkedengaran kat radio.. Tp still best! I`ve been memorized all the lyrics.. But now, da agak lupa sbb lama da xdgr.. Ngee~ :)

Lagu2 MCR ni best ni nk dengar masa tgh feel mmg agak lonely n thinking of someone or maybe thinking bout future.. some of the words are harsh and not good utk dijadikan example utk dak2 kecik.. kih3.. Mse dulu2 dgr lagu2 ni,, de la gak kena marah dgn beberapa org ttg lagu2 dia n perwatakan MCR mmbers.. But I didn`t took it seriously.. Sebab I can think bout what`s good n what`s bad.. uhuhu! Rilek jela.. Mostly lagu2 dia agak emo cuma yg mmbuatkan dia xnmpak emo or jiwang, muzik dia jeee! Ngee~ Ape2 pun aku salute kat MCR... <3>

*picture kat atas tu, sorry laa. Amik secara haram.. Ngee!

Penat

As salam..
Ya Allah sakit mcm makin mnjadi2 je.. Nk baik demam tp mcm lum ade chances lg laa. uhuh~ flu da agak teruk. Batuk pun xling lg. Tp dlm keadaan yg xbrape sihat ni, leh plak td g mandi manda kat bekok dgn fmly. AHahah~ Siap main terjun2 lagi.. Best yg amat.. Pastu skrg ni da mcm org ape tah.. Srrrooot sreeettt srooot sreeettt je.. Ahahahah~
Moga2 aku cepat la sihat.. uhuh~ xtertahan rasanye.. uhuhU~

Rest In Pieces~

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces

Pieces


Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces


Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
to make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
would you find it in your heart
and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

*By Saliva

Ya Allah...

Seriously, I`m damn zero.. I lost... I`m trying to search something that can fill myself.. Ya Allah, is there something that I missed? I don`t know.. Maybe sbb buku 5thun 5bulan tu mmbuatkan aku lg takut utk berada dlm `dunia` tu.. Oh God.. I really don`t know what to do...

Yum2...

As salam...

Wahhh.. bau harum semerbak bau cake choc mmg sgt mnusuk ke kalbu... Ya Allah, seronoknyeeee~ :)
Tp yg pastinye bukan la aku yg buat bnde alah ni... Ni hasil tgn akak aku.. uhuhu~ Ksian kat dia, xdpt mkn cake.. Dia da balik JB... Sesungguhnya, aku mmg nk tunggu kat bustop nk bg cake kat dia. Tp malangnya, xdapek la sbb cake belum ckup masak lg.. (Sorry ye kaklong) Erm... Sedapnyeeee~ Jap lagi nk mnikmati cake.. :)

p/s : Sesungguhnya, aku mmg lum reti lg macam mana nk adjust gmbar ni haaa.. Ahahaha~ nnt2 la aku buat yg lg baik.. kih3.. Ni la cake yg dicakapkan.. Ngeee~ :)

Tamat exam=tamat sem4

..As Salam....
14 nov 2010 (5.15ptang) hbis la exam aku utk sem4.. agak seronok sebab I can make it thru sem4.. Mnunggu result tu, agak takut.. Uhuhu~ Dala asek memain je sem4. Xthu la apa jd.. Mudah2an, dapat la result yg agak memberansangkan.. InsyaAllah... erm... tp yg xbest nye mase nk berpisah dgn kwn2.. uhuhu~ mmg le luaran nmpak macam macho.. Xde muka sedih pon.. (dlm hati, gila vavi laaa.. sedihnyeee) uhuhU~ xpela, abaikan jeee..

Ok tiket bus 15 nov 2010 pukul 3pm.. lek2 je kat bilik. dgn roomate.. (echa) uhuhu~ Xpelaa.. erm... mse nk g sec17, ayep secara tiba2 xdpt nk anta g sane.. ape ley buattt? uhuhu~ Pastu terngt la ade sorg kawan aku.. nama dia AS (bukan Amerika Syarikat) kih3.. mntak la tlg diaaa.. Nak crita pasal dia ni.. sedih laaaa... Next sem xdpt jumpa dia lg... Kena g*****g satu sem.. sedih sgt2.. Masa nk naik bus tu, mcm nk nangis pon ade.. Tp terpaksa la berlagak cool.. So, xde la nangisss.. Ehehe~ Next sem xde a penyeri class kitorg... Sedihnyeeeee~ (walaupun mulut dia kadang2 agak membengangkan certain org, tp aku xpenah nk amik ati pon dgn kata2 diaaa..) Rilek je kan aku? Kih3.. xpela..

Da dlm bus, aku msg la dgn kwn aku yg sorg lg ni.. Tny dia btul ke AS kne hukum mcm tu? Dia pon cakap, a`ah... dia kata jgn sedih laa.. dia bknnye mati pon.. xmati pon, still kawan maaa.. Sedihhhh~ :(

Sepnjang dlm bus,, badan mmg sakit gileeeerrrr... Kerusi xleh baringkan.. Tegak je aku duduk... Tekanan akuuuu~ Uhuhu~ 3jam setengah aku duk tegak je.. ALhamdulillah selamat smpai.. Tp kat highway tu, ade accident.. dua plak tu. dua2 pon treler.. Satu macam tersasar drpd lane.. so, trus senget kat tepi.. uhuhu~ lagi 1, langgar signboard.. Astghfirullah .. tkutttt.... Kat area Melaka. Tp aku xsure kat mana the actual place nyeee uhuu~

Its ok laaa.. Jnji aku selamat naik bus tu.. walaupon bus tu agak buruk.. huhu~ Will write later..

:)

*sempena cuti sem ni, jagala diri elok2.. moga2 sihat2 selalu.. aminn~ :)

Sekadar Beringattt~

As salam...
Ermm... tiba2 terfikir sesuatu.. erm.. ni sume sbb kemajuan tknologi terkini.. all the social sites yg ade skrg ni, bknnye bnde yg boleh dibuat main.. ptutnye dgn kemajuan ni, kita gunakan sebagai sesuatu yg bermanfaat & mostly yg buat account at certain social sites nk mncari kwn2 lama especially... kan? tp mnusia ni mnyalahgunakan tknologi yg ada.. Direct jela,, mostly Malay laa.. Aduiihh.. kadang2 xfaham kenapa la dorg nk mnjatuhkan sesama sndiri.. Upload gmbar2 yg boleh mngaibkan seseorg dgn niat nk mnjtuh kn seseorg tu.. Jgn cari pasalll.. Kang ade yg mngamuk.. kan syaitan da merasukkk.. bahayaaa.. Ni la mission syaitan.. nk menaikkan kemarahan manusia.. berpecah belah antara manusia.. Macamana? Mmg sakit tgk dorg mcm ni.. Hati aku pon sakittt.. Xkira la kawan2 ke, saudara-mara ke, dan paling menyedihkan, adik-beradik sendiri.. Ya Allah.. aku xsanggup nk hadapinyeee... Sakit weehhh.. Aku harap la kat org2 yg mcm ni, better jgn buat la account kat certain social sitesss~ Xbgus utk diri sndri dan juge org lain.. okeh? renung2kan laaa~ ^_^

u that i need the most nowww~

I`ve been lonely lately.. My mind is zero.. But then I think bout u.. Ure the one that I ned the most when I`m upset, sad, damn blurr... grrr.. I wish ure here beside me.. Make me happy.. I miss ur smile.. Miss everything bout u.. Hey.. bila la nk jmpa lg?? Mcm susah je nk jmpa lg.. U pn da mcm biskut.. Kejap ade, kejap xde.. apa ley buaaattt? Erghh..

* will try to c u on semester break.. Ngee~ :)

erm... xde idea nk ltak title apaaa~

For a long2 time i havent touch this blog.. because I dont know how to use this blog wisely.. Kih3.. Xpela, I`m trying to type whtever I want here.. uhuhu~

Here we go...
Feel a bit sad.. ahaha~ Da lama xnangis sbb kwn.. bukan la aku ngungkit nk tlg kwn2. xde terfikir pon mcm tu. ntah laaaa.. aku pon xthu macamane tetiba je mngalir air mata.. (nasib baik irene xtgk aku time aku nangisss) ahahah~ Ntah laaa.. tetiba terasa je.. (Nk ujung2 ni sensitif plakk) uuhu~ apa ley buaatt? Apa2 pon kwn aku ckp, anggap, aku xamik kesah pon.. Xkesah la dia ikhlas ke, xikhlas ke, nk mnggunakan aku je ke, xkesahh.. sbb aku ikhlas.. cume nk meluahkan je.. xsangke plak ade yg terasa dgn apa yg aku ckp kan.. bukannya apa.. isshh.. susah plak nk explain kat sini.. kalau leh, xnk la gaduh2 or putus kawan. xbest okeh? uhuhu~ Sorry la kepada sesiapa yg terasa dgn aku... Aku mungkin agak kasar (utk ciri2 seorg perempuan laaa) tp I`m trying to be nice one.. Okeh? just give me chance.. uhuhu~ I`ve been a good person actually (kih2 yeke?) btul la sebenarnyeee.. xkesah je pun.. (ape ni? ) uhuhu~ But I know, I`m not perfect.. Manusia xpenah brubah. agak2 pd kita da ok, org lain plak xok.. ermm.. xpelaaa.. redha aje.. janji ikhlas dlm melakukan sesuatu perkara.. Ermm.. sebak masih terasa lg.. ermm.. apa nk buat? nk study, lum ade mood.. (smpai bila pon xde mood) da la last paper.. So, tahap kemalasan agak tinggi.. Nk2 fikir balik jeee~ Isshhh.. Xpela.. sbr mnempuhi segalanyaa.. Allah pasti tlg aku.. Aminn~~

*Sorry kpd sesiapa yg mcm terasa dgn aku.. Mungkin aku xbaik. Tp apa2 pon. without kawan2, I cant go anywhere.. uhuhu~ Thanksss~ ^_^